Really awkward question about webcamming?

So my boyfriend and I are in a long distance relationship. It's not like we're e-dating, we met in school and now he left for college. So anyways we have needs you know so sometimes we get on skype and watch each other you know....on webcam. The thing is, I do find him really really attractive and I'm completely head over heels. He really does it for me in real life. But when we watch each other on skype, I am more interested in watching myself. I make my screen just as big as his, and I only watch him to make sure he is enjoying it. I don't consider myself a self abosorbed person. Also, I have seen p*rn and I'm repulsed by the guys but I like watching the women. But, when I went to a strip club I almost threw up when I saw the women in real life. I couldn't imagine kissing another girl, let alone getting ual with one. Yuck. So what does this mean? Am I straight with a little bit of curiousity? Does anyone else feel the same way?