I am fed up and want to give up...?

I truly understand you. I was like you as well. :) Don't try to change and be like your friends. Be yourself and do not sub-estimate yourself. We as human are unique in our own way. Your just like me and everyone else. God doesn't hate you. In fact you'll be surprised.He truly loves you. The entire things you had to endure until this very moment were tests meant to see how you can cope with. God is testing us everyday to see if we truly believe in him. We must not brake down. In this time we have to fight and hold on. Try changing the way you think and the way you want people to see you. Have good thoughts. Imagine a better world where people get along with each-other. You will definitely see results in your life. You can improve your knowledge by reading more books, books that really gets your attention. Try to evade your daily routine. Hang around more with your friends. Go and see what's new in town. Go to theatre, cinema with your friends.